1.5 years later

Thank you for this. I felt so alone at the time and it's relieving knowing someone understands where I'm coming from. I'm sorry you had to go through that. I am sure you will find someone who will reciprocate your love.

It was the same with my ex, we rarely did anything outside of my apartment. We probably went to the same 4 places all the time. He only wanted to see me during the weekends. He'd even sometimes look at his watch and say "Oh it's been 2 hours already. Time to leave!" laughed and left. I was incredibly confused by his behavior, because who says that?

He gave me the silent treatment for a week leading up to our first year together. On our anniversary, we went to a cafe for breakfast and he was quiet. It was incredibly awkward. After the date, he sent me a text saying "he couldn't punish me any longer" and that he'd come over to spend some more time together. He was then acting 'normal' and 'loving'. So confusing.

The relationship came to an end when he went to his dear friend's bachelor party, hired escorts, AND the party was at my ex's EX'S place (she was there too). I had no clue all this happened until the bride reached out to me. My ex said he hid this from me because he 'knew' how I'd react and didn't want me ruining their celebration.

He turned it around, and now I was the bad guy. I was a horrible girlfriend and also ruined a wedding. I went through months and months of cognitive dissonance trying to make sense of everything that happened.

I sometimes talk to my boyfriend about this, and he embraces me. He doesn't know why I endured so much, but he flat out says I never deserved that kind of treatment. Being with him is calming. He sees me for who I am, an individual.

I'm sorry for writing all of this, it's just me kinda making sense of everything that happened.

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