I can relate to this story. It's scary. I seized and woke up with EMTs over me too, except I didn't know it was going to happen I just dropped while walking to the bathroom and got hurt, hit my head, in and out of being awake. I've been taking them for years and I've tried to stop but my panic attacks and anxiety are just so intense. I also feel really weird when I do stop (last time was years ago) so idk what to do anymore. Good on you for 4 months I wish I was there. I know what you mean about seeing really weird things too. This is one strong drug that messes with your brain. Do you feel normal now or still feel weird like vision and stuff?