Him and I have a joking/serious/but am I really joking or am I really serious kind of relationship. When he came home after his last run away, the first thing I did was hug him and then smack his arm and tell him “I know it’s been a year with us and you’re trying to push us away to see if you can. But you can’t! So stop trying to give me a heart attack” and I told him my husband and I were trying to figure out when we would make time to visit him in jail.

I’ve really tried to impress on him that he’s stuck with us and that (like you said) we CHOSE him. I went to court and FOUGHT for him. I know he has a hard time with that because his mother came to court to gladly pass off her responsibility and it was actually shortly after that that he ran away the first time.

I keep telling him that with the choices he’s making, either the police or CAS will be taking him away from me. I will not send him away, nor will I ever give up custody, but he’s been told many times that his decisions and choices he’s making will have them removing him from our house for our younger children’s safety...like the drugs and the horrible writings (in another comment I made)

You’re right, though. I am trying to make him feel wanted and loved. It’s just really really a struggle when he is so heartless and cruel to someone else that I love :(