Hey OP. I really hope you have a great day tomorrow, and I hope you read what I have to say.
In high school, I was pretty much a total loser. My freshman year I would eat lunch in one of my teachers classrooms because I literally had no friends. I went just about my entire freshman year with zero friends. The one friend I had was at a different lunch than me, thus we never hung out. I don't think I went out once my entire freshman year.
Year two started to peak up a little bit, at least at school. My friend and I shared a few classes, and a lunch. I slowly met one or two other guys due to him. I would always ask them if they would like to hang out, and they would always refuse. I once again had zero social life outside of school, and would play video games all day. My grades were great. My home life was so/so.
My mother and father divorced when I was only 4 years old. I was the only one out of my three brothers that would even have a memory of my father. I lived with my mother until I was 7 years old. I had severe anger management, and my mother and father agreed to let me move in with my father. I lost complete contact with my brothers. My best friends. To top it off, my mother hated my father, and would not allow him to ever see them. This placed me in constant fights with my Dad as I got older, because he would get mad at me for not talking to my mother and getting her to allow them over.
In addition to that stress, my parents were declaring bankruptcy, in danger of losing our house, and both alcoholics. Afternoons were lovely. Evenings consisted of them screaming at each other and fighting. It was tough for me.
Now here comes my junior year. My grades began to slip. I went from a 4.0 to around a 2.5. I didn't realize it, but I destroyed my dreams of escaping my house and going away to college for free. My friends still never wanted to do anything. My life was still terrible.
Senior year was when my life began to change a little. I had an interest in TV Production, and anchored our morning news segments. I took the SAT, and scored very well. I thought for sure I was going to my dream school, Florida State.
When I was denied on December 14th, 2013, I cried. I didn't apply to any colleges. I didn't care. My only social life was playing League of Legends with one of two friends, and working 9-6 Saturday and Sundays. Finally in March, I applied to USF. I was accepted for the Summer Term.
I'm currently attending college on zero scholarships and zero help. I'm over 27K in debt after my first year. But I would never change it for the world. OP, I was just like you. I didn't understand why my friends didn't want to go out. Once I got to college, everything changed. I met amazing people. They were always down to do stuff. I rushed in the Spring, and now have over 70 people I can call my brothers. I may be heavily in debt, but I am away from the cancer in my life, my home. I've never been happier.
Now OP, I can't help you with your social life. I'm very sorry. I wish you didn't have to go through High School like I did. However, please don't let your grades slip. Your parents love you, and want you to succeed. I know it might be hard to be told, but set yourself up to go to a four year university. High School is tough, but your entire life doesn't have to be like this. If you have dreams of attending a school, don't let that dream slip out of your hands. Don't think of high school as the peak of your life. It is the stepping stones to some of the best years of your life. Do big things, OP. I hope I helped somewhat. Please talk to me if you EVER need somebody to talk to. I don't care what it's about. I don't want the world to lose an amazing, smart young man.