And I haven't said I'm going to marry him. I simply want to visit him. I didn't know I'm on r/break up with your boyfriend because ldrs don't work although all of us are in ldrs. I was younger than this when I had my first boyfriend, I dated him since when I was 14 up to when I was 16, and we lived 30 mins away. I got a brief understanding of how relationships work and how people very often either get bored or fight often etc. I know how honeymoon period works and no, it's never going to last for one year in real life. I studied about this in Psychology class, and people usually break up after 1,5 years. If they don't do it then, high chances they will never break up.

I have asked for perspective on this from multiple adults that know me very well, from 20 yo to 60 yo. None of them, except for my parents, said that there is something wrong with me dating him because they have always considered me very intelligent and wise for my age, mainly because of how involved I was in Philosophy classes and how much I read. And my parents did not say that he's too old for me or anything like that, they simply said that they will never allow me to go out with someone without them being there.