I (18f) have developed jealousy and some insecurities due to bf (20) and past relationships , also is this cheating?

Yes i know this isn’t a normal relationship. But you and the other poster made it seem like i’m the abusive and wrong one. None of the conversations he had was normal, he was flirting and even started to make me feel bad by asking for a threesome with the other girl. He would constantly put me down and say things he didn’t like about me, such as i hate short hair on girls but i love you so i like your hair. Passive aggressive comment. I didn’t break him he broke me. I was fine before this relationship. I had no insecurity issues with my ex. So considering this i don’t see how this makes me an abusive person. There was a point where he was going through my phone because he didn’t trust me, and at one point he physically abused me and said he was going to kill me. he has put me through alot of pain physically and emotionally. If you want to believe i’m psycho or have a lot of issues go ahead, but I’ve never threatened to kill him and i’ve never actually hurt him. theres a lot of stuff i didn’t mention because i wanted to just mention my part on how i can get better. I know therapy is one. I’m not saying me being controlling is okay because i know it’s not but that wasn’t he focus of my post. The focus was him, because i always make excuses for him. None of this happens anymore but i still find myself thinking about it a lot. I think it’s normal for people to still hurt over some stuff partners do. Like at the beginning of the relationship i was fwb with a guy but i was also talking to my bf, i told him and he still gets mad at me for it. We weren’t dating then so i didn’t think it would matter. If my boyfriend is confiding to other girls about our relationship and asking for threesomes with an ex i think its right if i get mad. He has lied to me about alot as well, he called himself a pathological liar, he also saved a girls name in his phone as a guys name, and was telling his friends he was the side chick. He even got the idea from me, when i was making a joke about how some guys save girls names as males to trick there girlfriends and then cheat. I haven’t gone through his phone in almost 5 months. He’s open about it and hes asked to go through mine though. Just thought i’d include some more information to give a bigger perspective

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