I (18M) am feeling the heart wrenching pain of being empty and alone.

This sounds exactly like me and I don't think anyone deserves to end up like me. Get therapy, force your way into a psych ward if you have to. I was in your situation in college except I literally had a full ride and dropped out after half a semester, hell I'm back at it 5 years later halfway through my degree and I still don't even bother to study because my C average is good enough I guess.

Therapy and a good psychologist are essential. You can probably get some free sessions with one at your school. I spiraled into a 5 year slump of never leaving the house and just browsing the internet in bed all day other than my parttime job I used to pay rent to my parents.

Don't worry about your grades that's meaningless. You can retake classes or work something out, those aren't the end of the world. Talk to your parents if you can and see if they can help you. Maybe see if your best friend can plan some fun outings to get you back into talking face to face?

See if you can find a good goal. That can provide at least a sense of purpose and something to work towards. My life is and has been an utter disaster (you can check my post history for proof) but I hold out hope that I change it to what I want. I struggle with that constantly but I push through because I somehow believe in myself.

You should believe in yourself, and I absolutely emphasize the need for working with mental health professionals, psych wards get a bad rap but I stayed in one for two weeks after another emotionally abusive episode by me against my parents and it finally kicked a little sense into me. Not to mention I finally got meds.

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