Posted here way back in Feburary, after my ex-gf had cheated on me, and let me know so in a pretty awful way... since then, Ive rode on some train box cars, met some genuinely beautiful souls, buried a few too many friends, rode some train box cars to some more states and back, quit my job, enlisted in the military, graduated basic training, got mugged, finally opened up about some childhood trauma that I was hiding to my mom and family, and learned (more like learning) guitar.

Im still struggling with the whole deal with my ex... Im starting to wonder if theres something wrong with me. Shes not the person I loved anymore, but damn do I miss being able to actually, genuinely TALK and understand things with someone. One thing I never realized before enlisting was just how lonely things can get sometimes, and its starting to show. Havent been taking care of myself like I ought to be for awhile now, which just kinda compounds things and makes it all worse.

bleh. Just need a pick me up I guess. Hope you all are well.