At 20, the prospect of moving home to my abusive family when I couldn't make rent was so bad that I took money from 3 other men for sexual favours.

I get the sentiment for sure but it doesn't quite work that way! When I would been "doing it for free", I would have had considerably more choice in who I did it for free with, rather than having basically no options and being well, desperate. When a stranger gives you essentially a script of "things you are to do" and you know you have to do it all and do it right with this person you have no attraction to or connection with, and in the back of your head you're disgusted with yourself for resorting to it... well let's just say it's not exactly "ah fuck it might as well get paid to do what I was planning anyway". There was nothing glamorous about the situation, it was "let a stranger use your body so you're not homeless". Hope that helps explain the mentality in that kind of situation a bit better

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