I (20f) am in love with my boyfriend (21m) but I'm not really physically attracted to him

Grew up in a very conservative household plus had some sexual abuse stuff when I was a kid so I was very averse to dicks and sexual man things. Developed an affinity for boobs though, all those female only camps I got sent to had the opposite effect of what my parents were intending.

Jokes aside, I don't know. I lost my virginity to him so I'm not really sure what sex or that kind of attraction should be like. He has a high sex drive though, and is very much attracted to me, but I don't think I see him the same way he sees me. I don't know if it's different for men and women. If he lost weight would he become more conventionally attractive? Absolutely. Would it make me physically attracted to him? I don't know. My ex was super fit but we never had sex or got close (thanks mom) and I don't think I really wanted to anyways.

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