Firstly, it looks like you really need to work on properly accepting responsibility. Yes, it's sad and messed up that your ex was abusive, and it sucks that she cheated on you. However, whatever lie you made up about your past and abusive ex must've been pretty horrible for him to be throwing insults at you. Granted, you don't owe the internet the entire story, or any part of it to begin with. To me, however, it seems like you're leaving out big chunks of the story in order to make yourself look better. You keep repeating how much YOU have tried to fix the relationship, how much better YOU have gotten with your pathological lying, how YOU fixed your problems after seeing it had hurt your boyfriend. It's consistently about you, even though you're not the one who was hurt in this situation. That's the point I'm trying to make right now. You're under this illusion that you've taken accountability, when even now you're still focusing only on yourself. Even in the beginning of the post, you say that you both broke each other's trust. When? How did he break your trust? You're the one who messed up, why lump him into the guilt?

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Secondly, after you've finally taken full and proper accountability, then you need to give your boyfriend as much space as he wants. Even if he ends up breaking up with you. Even if it takes months. Even if he never forgives you. You need to be willing to accept that giving someone an apology does not equate to them forgiving you.

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I deeply suggest seeking mental health services for yourself, because I hate to break it to you, but pathological lying isn't something you can fix all on your own. You need an outside perspective into your actions in order to understand reality. Work on yourself.