Maybe this has already been said, but I'll say it anyway.

You already know the answer. You are already leaning one way or the other and you want Reddit to justify your decision for you. We can't do that. But more importantly, it shouldn't matter what our opinions are.

It's an intensely personal situation you're in and you have to listen to your heart on this.

You are obviously supported by your husband and child, and a strong woman to be cut off completely and still make it through the last four years. I think, your (immediate) family and your gut feelings have gotten you this far, that's the only things you should consider in this situation.

It'll be the right call. I'm sure of it.