Hey, life is hard but you are the only one you should rely on, you chose to leave everything behind for “love” and that’s understandable. My only advice is do what you can with what you have, if there’s someone you can get back to with in Florida , any family member you can stay with for the time being and apply at the post office. Trust me it’s a well paying gig and you’re young enough to hold onto it for at least a year , then you can transfer into other crafts/positions , they offer scholarships, discounted tuition to dozens of colleges across the nation. One of our custodians with 3 kids chose to go back to college in a different state. Not only did she keep her pay , above $25/hr, she moved to a state with a $8 minimum wage, she landed the scholarship and got a discount on tuition, took advantage of everything they offer and is now on track to become transportation logistics manager within her 2nd year there. Lots of hard work but you can make it happen. I wish you nothing but the best kiddo, and like you feel what’s the point of living? To make sure the next day isn’t another day but the start of a new tomorrow.