Sweetie, no let me be clear. If you don't care, why are you writing to an online forum? You seem to have a sassy answer to every response. I am sorry every relationship of yours has been shitty. But, you have the power to LEAVE, and not put up with anybody's bullshit. You don't have to be in a relationship to be a whole woman at all. I know what the fuck I am talking about because I was you, a victim. Honey, I got out by the skin of my teeth. It took two other people to help me leave,and I had to go out of state. Before I had opportunity to leave, I nearly died. I did try to escape many times. The son of a bitch changed the order of the spark plug wires on car. If you don't have a Chilton's book there is no way to correct it. I have run out in the woods away from him. I am a beast in the woods. There shouldn't be any confusion. No one is pretending shit. You do have power to do what the fuck you want. You are a grown ass woman over the age of 18. It is NOT your fault you have been with a bunch of assholes. That is not on you. Just be single and find out about YOU. You are worth it, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I am telling you as a former victim, that no one has the right to treat you like shit, or boss you around. Fuck all that.