Okay you're right I can do that. I love him so much but I can't do it anymore. I talked to him after I read this but I don't know if he understood. He has to understand at some point. She's not just my abuser, she abused him too, worse and way more physically, so I don't know why he's okay with it but I think he's just broken and I feel so bad and I don't know if I could forgive myself if she killed him, but I told him I almost have my degree and at that point he's going to have to choose because I can't do it anymore, but he just said "okay" so maybe you're right and that's all I can do. I looked it up and there's a shelter only like 40 minutes from me. I'm sorry I went crazy I just try so hard not to think about it but when I do I lose my mind and I don't know what to do or where to go but you're right there's a way out and I just didn't want to think about it but at some point it will be the only option. Thank you for talking to me I'm sorry I'm like this I just go crazy sometimes but thank you and I hope you're staying safe right now