Wow. Thanks so much for taking the time to reply. Is it bad your post made me emotional? I’ve never even thought of looking for a gay-friendly psychologist. That’s made me feel a bit better about that possibility already. I live in Edinburgh, so I’ll have a look.
I’m so glad to read you had a partner who was on the small side and you both still enjoyed it. Never in my life have I ever seen positive discussion like this and from other searches in this sub. This sub alone is the reason I’ve decided I want to change. So thankful.
However, this post is freaking me out:
I’m my own worst enemy. Even though there are many positive comments, I see one like this and it sets me on a downward spiral and I just resort to porn and convincing myself that ignoring my needs is best. I realise it is self-destructive but even if I wasn’t in a negative mindset I still think it’s going to be so hard to find a guy who will be ok with it. I’ve been watching porn for well over a decade and I’ve never seen a dick my size. I honestly didn’t know there were people that would be ok with a dick below 5 inches. Reddit has shocked me (in the best possible way)
However, I have phimosis and it is horrible. I’ve also never seen anyone in porn etc with phimosis either and think I need to build up the confidence for circumcision.
I also think because I take care of my physique and people call me handsome, that it sets me up for bigger failure when I'm nude. Not going to be a complete victim and complain about looking decent, but in this case for me it is something that gives me anxiety
I don’t even have an idea how to text a guy. How to date. Nothing. I truly have a lot to work on. But I guess like everything in life I just need to go for it.