I (26M) feel like I ruined my relationship, my (25f) girlfriend walked in on me jacking off when I was in the bathroom. We haven't been the same since, and I need some advice on what I can do to fix this.

She doesn't "live" with me technically but for the past 3-4 months she's been staying the night every night, so its basically living with me just not "official" like she still has her place she can go to any time she wants. Honestly, the sex life is great, not as frequent as it used to be because in the beginning it was like 5 times a day and she was getting chronic UTI's so we had to slow it down. She's honestly the hottest girl I have ever dated or slept with so I don't know what my issue is. At the time, I wasn't thinking, I was tired, and I just wanted some mindless self indulgence. So when I went to go take a shower I thought I could bust a quick nut and be more relaxed and maybe I could even last longer when we have sex later. It wasn't about picking a porn star over her, it was about me being too lazy/tired for sex and just wanting a quick fix to being horny. To answer your last question, no I don't think I would go to therapy for porn addiction if I was single, but just because I wouldn't take care of my problems without someone pushing me doesn't mean I don't have a problem in general. And yes she does initiate sex but not recently for obvious reasons.

I never thought I had a problem with it, but now I think I do. And I'm going to see a therapist for it because I don't want it to cause us to break up. She says, other than the porn thing, I am an amazing boyfriend and she loves me, and I think that's the only reason she's still sticking around.

So I think it's time for me to cut out porn entirely from my life and attend therapy regularly for it. My dilemma now is I need to prove to her that I love her and think she is beautiful, and I need to gain her trust back. I know it will take time and I'm not looking for a quick fix, just someone to guide me in the right direction of things I can do to help her feel like she did in the beginning of the relationship, where she felt loved and admired and safe. It really breaks my heart that I did this to her and I want to make this right.

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