I’m average physically and I wouldn’t say that I’m content with life but I’m successfully working towards a better future. I probably am emotionally draining. I speak out loud about everything and I’ve gotten use to working through things that way. It’s second nature at this point. I would consider myself overly focused on the relationship just because it’s what I’m enjoying the least right now so I’m trying to put in effort to fix it.

Im having a hard time changing my behavior. It hurts in my gut when I’m trying my best to keep my emotions under control. I so desperately want things to change, but I’m finding that what I’m doing it counterproductive, even if I feel like I am being very loving. I’m too available, too needy, and I want to be understood so badly that I am talking about it far too much. It hurts to keep it all in though, I don’t know how people do it and feel good.