Hi,

First I would say take a deep breath first, since as I'm reading through this it seems you want to rush certain processes all within five years.

Also, I wanted to address what you said here "I feel like no good man will ever want me because my father made me feel like I was never wanted." Your dad, for whatever reason, may have made a few mistakes with how he related to you as a daughter. So you may have to understand that though your dad was someone who raised you, he might not have been correct in all the ways he treated you. There are lots of parents who struggle with how to relate to their kids, especially if they don't fit their parent's exact image of how a child should be.

Now as for your goals, they are great!

1. Marrying a "good captain" will ensure that you have an emotional pillar when life gets dramatic (it will at some point). Unfortunately, you have to sift through enough men to find them. Not many men are thinking about settling down at age 29. It's highly suggested that you find a man who is centered with who he is and what is life purpose entails. He has to see you in his vision with the family he wants to create if you want a strong family unit. At the same time, he needs to be mindful of how he addresses you so that he's not unintentionally putting you down.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CQnGU6IbKM

Here, in the video below, a great speaker at the 7:00 minute mark describes that after a year of being married, a man may speak in an inappropriate tone with his other. In order for a man to lead a relationship to greatness, he has to watch how he communicates with his significant other.

1. Having a healthy child is an awesome goal. I'm confident that you'll research ways to make sure your newborn child gets all the vitamins needed up to the early weeks of pregnancy all the way until he or she is born. After some time past birth, you may want to encourage language learning with your newborn.

2. You want to live in a nice house? Cool. Hopefully any school debt is out of sight and out of mind. You might need to build up your credit score because if its low, then banks might reject your offer for a loan.

3. Your insecurities. Now this one's a little tougher than the other 3. In order to get over your insecurities, you have to see that the way your father was/is with you needed an upgrade. He might not have praised your minor accomplishments enough, or perhaps the way he talked with you could have been better. As a result, you need to make sure that you do not repeat that mistake with your own children. In your head, you should be saying "My dad wasn't appreciative of me, but I know deep down I have a good head on my shoulders. My dad is part of me, but when I have kids, I have to make sure I'm a better version of him (and mom if she's in the picture)."

Other than that I see greatness in your future. So far everything you established seems to lead you to a good lifestyle.