i need help please. like the first post said, I (20M) was talking to a (20F) and we were at a party in a early stage of our relationship when she first started calling me her man, and i told her i loved her at a party one night. i immediately started crying because i didnt want to get hurt. i knew i loved her, i didnt want our friendship of 5 years to fall apart. (i knew her thru social media for a while). she was my best friend and i ruined her. She played me so hard in the beginning and made me chase her and i did because i loved her but i kept slipping up with my ex. Not that i would meet up with my ex but that i would text her i miss her while i was happily in a relationship with the girl i wanted to spend my life with. i ended up cheating on her but i am not a bad person i do not cheat. This hurts my heart so bad because her and all of her friends want nothing to do with me and i lost the girl i love. im in so much pain i have no direction. i begged and begged for this girl n she kicked me in the face, punched me. I know i need to get my life on track and make myself happy before i can even think about seeing anyone else, but i want her. This girl is my everything and until i have her again i feel like nothing is right. please i know my mindset is bad please someone help me overrcome this. i want to be a better person and i want to have my girlfriend back. i never meant to hurt her, i love her and she thinks im a liar. anything helps i just need hope