Thank you, I didn't quite ever understand why I was so quiet and timid around people adults (just realized I was fine around kids and meeting new kids) and my mom would always tell everyone, he's just shy. I didn't understand, looking back, why I had no self esteem or self-confidence as far back as grade school.

As someone asked below, yeah, things had been going better. Making new friends, work has been going really well for awhile. Some parts of my life are pretty solid. My kids are amazing and we're very close. The shit they went through, I went through with them, has brought us closer.

I guess my brain figured it was a good time to remember.