Thank you for the kind words and encouragement. I just turned 29 and have an odd life that leads to instabilities I suppose. Staring at screens all day in between wandering the world. Your thoughts help, just as much from the general care you show as from relating your own experiences and letting me know that 6 months really isn't a huge span of time, which could be doubly true seeing as the experience itself lasted an infinite period of time.

I can't even imagine the places you've been to and back. Just wow.

And the daily thoughts aren't so bad, I just feel overly-hippy alot of times. But like right now for instance.... I've been on the computer for like 15 hours just thinking, browsing, chatting, researching (not working). I came to europe for a couple months to work and instead I just do nothing but sit here and contemplate...avoiding life in a way. The whole night-light issue is just ridiculous I know, and I can imagine that diminishing with time.

My last time doing shrooms I freaked out a bit, but we were at the bottom of the grand canyon, my friends left, and cops came - so I try not to consider that as a bad trip as much as a bad situation. I feel like I'm just barely hanging on the edge with regards to sanity sometimes though and I could go from penthouse to the gutter at any given time. But it does make me feel better your assessment of ability to do shrooms signifying a decent mental fortitude!

I'll see how things go. I don't want to force things or make things worse, but I know that there is more work and improvement to go through, and many that I've spoke to have told me that aya didn't really even start to really show them things until the 4th or 5th time... and essentially I've only had one aya breakthrough.

Don't get me wrong - I think that aya gave me the most cherished and important experience of my life in a lot of ways - it just gave me other little tidbits to ponder as well. Honestly this is the first time I've used reddit and can't be positive I'll have a continuous presence here, but skype or facebook are always good for me if you'd like, find me at: gnarlybro on skype.

Recovery has made a ton of progress since the day after, I have alot more known areas I need to explore (yoga, meditation, crystals, social integration...etc) so I hope things continue to get better!