I just want to feel like I matter. I'm lonely, bitter, angry, frustrated with who I am and how I got to this point. I want to be able to openly discuss my feelings and emotions without being told to "man up, pussy." or that "real men don't cry." So I swallow these feelings, bottle those emotions up and just keep it all deep down inside me where no one can see it, and you know what? It hurts. Real fucking bad. I want to be able to ask a woman out for coffee without being called out on social media for being a creep or weirdo because I've been rejected & ignored so many times that I don't even know how to ask a woman out anymore. Most of this is just me ranting and believe me, I know women don't have it any easier than men most of the time. In some aspects they do, just as men have it easier than women in some aspects; But coming from a 32yr old male, I just would like a break from everything and to come home to a woman that loves me for me and who will hug me and tell me it'll be alright. Am I suicidal? Not really, but there's been days where I'm really questioning why I'm here. Why are men just looked at disposal. Why do we have it so God damn difficult when it comes to dating? I'd just like a break from it all, honestly