I think your perception of your experience reveals that you're inclined to perceive neutral actions as hostile when white ppl perform them in your presence

I'm saying this in the neutral manner possible--like, I'm not denying that sometimes white ppl really DO be manifesting hostile energies, I'm just saying that you seem to be pattern-matching really hard around this, and that in the future u should consider how your implicit assumptions tint your perception

Also, in general, u should trust ppl who give off pleasant energy and avoid those whose ping your radar in a bad way. If that means u distrust white ppl and don't feel at ease around them, so be it--u don't need permission or validation to act on the impressions u derive from your experiences