Hey I know the feeling all to well, all you can do is keep marching forward until you’re out of the bullshit and muck. Stop seeing minor failures as a life failure. Fuck it. Take 10 years to get through it if that’s what it takes. Fail as much as you can as often as you can. It’s literally the best way to learn. ‘Successful people have failed more times than non-successful people have tried’. Theres very little real downsides to failing on an individual basis. Just keep going. My dad always used to tell me when shit hit the fan ‘so what’, not in a dismissive way but trying to instill the wisdom of failure. Failure is good. Trying is good. Trying is an end in and of itself. Don’t lose hope because things go wrong, that’s how life works, things get messy. I know it’s cliche but every famous/successful/genius person has gone through the same bullshit. The separating factor has and always will be the willingness to continue trying even when hope is lost. You can’t beat life, life will fuck your shit right up. All we humans can do is keep trying. It’s in our nature even. We came this far due to the failures of our past.