I still have bad days. My past sometimes comes back to haunt me, especially if I'm overworked or stressed out. I experienced quite a lot of relation related trauma, and I haven't been able to work through it, so I have no idea how I feel about it now. I have chronic stomach pains and nausea, it's probably a very stress dependent IBS. It makes things very difficult some times. I'm tired most of the time.

But! I finish my nursing degree next summer, and I have a job that I love, where I can build on my experiences to help others. I have a fiancé who supports me in everything I do, and when I'm down, he takes a lot of the burden off my shoulders. I came from a home with constant emotional stress and tension, where yelling and manipulation were the main solutions to everything. I am now in a relationship with absolutely no loud voices or passive aggressiveness. We have a dog, a corgi named Mozart! And this year I will celebrate my first Christmas alone with my fiancé!

I feel like whatever I want or need, I can get it, if I keep working, and take my time. There's no rush. I'll be fine.