It does get easier.

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Time really does help. It may not seem like it now. It may seem impossible to imagine a time when you won't think of her. When a place or a car passing by will not remind you. A scent etc.

I too tried to tell myself that somewhere deep down there was a good, caring person. That she was just a product of dysfunction and ultimately not at fault for all of the things she did. Lying, cheating, manipulating. In actuality she is who she is, and unless she works to change it will never be different. With anybody.

But with time and working on yourself you truly come out better on the other side. You find out more about your strengths and acknowledge your weaknesses. You work on those weaknesses to make yourself stronger and much less likely to fall in that trap again.

The captain save a hoe complex is what led a lot of us, (Men), to this sub. These women have a sixth sense on how to work us guys and make it seem they are perfect. Until the mask comes off and the true person emerges, we fall hard and make excuses for the behavior. Put up with the bullshit for exciting sex and how this person we think we love moves us feel, in the good times.

You will get through this. Take the time to explore yourself and grieve. It is natural. No magic bullet here but you WILL come out a stronger and better person on the other side.

Good luck.

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