Its good to feel down. It means youre open for change. Some people are just more industrious in nature, thats why they've achieved more, kahit teenager pa lang. You should find work that fits your personality more. According to your 5 major personality traits: 1) conscientiousness 2) agreeableness 3) neuroticism 4) extraversion 5) openness

Watch jordan peterson talk about this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pu__97bVyOc

Also i read you said you dont have a goal, deciding is really hard, but you have to decide, or you'll end up as this man child, all meaningless potential, and i agree with peterson, it is an ugly tragic thing: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JjfClL6nogo

PS clean your room, sort yourself out