I don't know if anybody else mentioned this because you're getting a lot of really good responses here. But I remember a time in my life when I knew how it felt to not feel depressed. I think that people who don't experience depression don't know how relentless it can actually be.

When I felt "normal," I viewed things in a different way than when I feel depressed. I wouldn't have been able to see beyond the suicide attempt. I think a "normal" person believes that the act of "saving" somebody from suicide is enough to fix the problem, because they don't have any concept of the underlying pain that causes the suicide attempt. I think a depressed person faces a very different hell every day, and it's hard to be understood by people who have not experienced it. They probably just think that you are out of danger, so everything must be OK.

So you will probably get a lot of empathy from people here who understand what you are going through. In this thread, I bet you that we all care about your quality of life. We all want our own quality of life to be better, and I don't think any of us would wish this pain on anybody. I'm sorry that it doesn't translate into the people that you know in your personal life.

Be well, buddy.