How do you feel knowing that you may have caused someone else to suffer or die because of your ignorance and childish behavior. You clearly need to move back home with your parents and you need to admit that you're not ready to be a fully functioning adult. You are a danger to society and you should be ashamed of yourself. This is pathetic and gross, imagine how much time you wasted just because you're a big baby who refuses to grow up. I hope your boyfriend dumps you and finds a real woman, not some pathetic excuse for a woman. Please do not put yourself in any future relationships and work on understanding that you're not good for anyone besides yourself. Sit in a dark corner and think about your life and how pathetic it is, don't bother talking to others, you'll only waste their time.