Alcoholics of Reddit: What is your, "and then I realized I was an alcoholic" moment?

I realized when I was buying my third bottle of whiskey and second box of beer for the week, heart racing because I was excited about getting home so I could start drinking, ignoring texts from a friend because I knew his plans wouldn't allow me to drink enough.

Then I realized for the second time when I drove to my dads place at 2 in the afternoon, then skulled a quarter of a bottle of whiskey in my car just out of sight of his house because I "needed a pick-me-up" before I went to spend the afternoon with him. He smelt it on me and I lied and told him that I'd had a hard lunch with some friends.

I realized for the third time when I had gotten black out drunk on Saturday because it was the weekend, drunk on Sunday because I was drinking Saturday's hangover away, majorly drunk on Monday because I'd had a shit day, drunk on Tuesday because I was still feeling like shit from Monday, drunk on Wednesday because I just had to finish off the last of a bottle (and about 6 beers), drunk on Thursday because fuck it, it's Friday tomorrow, end of the week, got black out drunk on Friday because it's the weekend tomorrow, then realized I'd done exactly the same thing the week before, and probably the week before that but I couldn't remember properly.

I realized for the fourth time when I was reading this thread, recognizing everything from alternating liquor stores, "celebrating" everything that happened in my life as an excuse to drink, having multiple realizations without doing anything about it, denying that I was a "true" alcoholic because I didn't have physical withdrawal symptoms, all while drunk on a Wednesday night with a freshly opened bottle beside me.

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