You're a gentleman for doing what you did. You're not an idiot. I think that she'll remember you as the guy who made her love life and guys again. I mean, what did she have as a moving force before you came along? Had it not been for you, she might not have wanted to ever date another guy ever again and would have been in celibacy, become a spinster, etc. etc. You changed that and made a positive impact in her life that will resonate with her, even if you're not in the picture anymore. But don't look at it as "it's over". Think of it as "we had fun, didn't we?". I had fun in Hawaii. Hawaii isn't over for me. I went there once, had a great time, and now I have memories that I'll always have.

I was sick to my stomach while reading about that guy who raped her. I wish he had gotten 200 years. You know why? Because some day he'll back on the street and who knows what he'll do next. It's scary to think about. A five year old girl whose life he just freaking ruined. It's not right at all!! :S

So to be blunt, I'm gay. Okay? I've dated a couple of guys and I've had two boyfriends. The first one really made me naïve and realize how vulnerable I am. He smoked, was coercive, yelling at me, touching my butt when I didn't approve of it. Now, as you probably deduced from my lack of going to the gym, I'm not the most fit guy. So with that being said, I do worry about my safety in a relationship with another guy. I thought that my ex was going to hurt me or force me to have sex with him. He once said that he would stop smoking unless I came out to everyone in my family and friends. Like, that's just torture. So, I ended it with him on his birthday. Happy birthday, you son of a bitch. Anyway, the second one was nicer. He was a friend of mine in middle school, but happened to be gay. Like, I was shocked, but then I kinda put the pieces together and realized that it was more obvious than I though. But anyway, he was bipolar, taking medication, and although he was nice and cared about me, I couldn't continue the relationship since I didn't know how to deal with a partner being bipolar. I didn't want something to happen and me not to know how to respond. And plus, what if he flips out and goes after me? The end, me.

Anyway, what I can tell you? You have great friends, loving family, and people who will be there for you no matter what. I'm not sad that I'm single. I got to have lunch with my best friend of 18 years. As old as you are! I mean, I have that at the end of the day despite the worst that could ever happen to me in a relationship.

Don't try to harp on her so much and try to see what she does in terms of getting back in contact with you. If she wanted the relationship to continue working, then she'd reach out to you. Otherwise, you're beating a dead horse. I hope this helped and that you're okay with having gay friends. I can help you with girls and relationship advice lol :D