You’ll get through it. It’s all about powering through. Surround yourself with people who support you and always have somebody you can talk to. Don’t be afraid to cry, let it all out. Crying will eliminate plenty of thoughts. I’m sure you’re aware but suicide is not the answer. It may seem like a way out but there are plenty of people who would be hurt by it. Just remember, no matter how bad those thoughts are, there is always somebody else who is in a much rougher condition. The ACL is a long recovery but go through all the steps and do everything correctly and you’ll be back to work in no time. Good luck! People love and care about you. Just remember that. No family member should ever judge you for wanting to talk or needing a shoulder to cry on.