It’s not easy and just know a lot of people know how you feel and are experiencing the same right now. I have just been diagnosed after a misdiagnosis of GAD and major clinical depression. My sister was also diagnosed many years back so it was to be expected that someone else in the family would come out the same. I’ve been struggling with the same thoughts and feeling embarrassed/ashamed of myself for something that I didn’t choose, and that shouldn’t be a thing. No one chooses to have a mental illness. It’s not your fault nor is it in your control and don’t let others make you feel like you have something you have to hide about yourself. You’re not alone and people will say what they want at the end of the day, so what matters is that you accept yourself and just try to better each day. Don’t let the illness become how you define yourself, you are not the disorder, it’s just one piece of an entire whole.