I almost killed myself. Should I never do shrooms again?

I had a similar trip about three weeks ago but I was alone, I am VERY experienced with mushies and have done them 30 - 40 times in my life but this time something went weeiiiiiirrrrrd, I think it was a combination of not smoking any weed and being too early in the day (not dark outside) so I started to feel shit and also I wasn't too happy with where my life was when going into the trip which is most likely the main thing that went wrong.... but yeah after a while the mushies began to convince me that I was the only conscious thing in the universe and my brain absolutely 100% rejected that idea and started fighting with the drugs ferociously, I ended up forcing myself to vomit like 10 times because it felt like I needed to make myself do things in order to stay in control, eventually I came to and could not shake the feeling that I had just gone absolutely batshit mentally insane and would never come back...... it's now three weeks later and I feel fine enough to do another trip tonight with my mate, The feeling lingered for a couple days but I eventually was able to convince myself that the universe was absolutely not made just for me (heard about solipsism and felt very relieved). I havent fully understood what the shrooms were telling me but it has definitely helped me work on my narcissism and superiority complex which I realised had been brewing for a few months... Any way to sum it up, don't throw out the idea of doing them again, just give yourself some time and continue to reinforce your "not wanting to die" feelings because trust me bro it's never a good time to die and your life could drastically change for the better at any moment so just stick with it and be happy knowing good things are always waiting around the corner :)

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