Almost the one year anniversary of my big sister

There are no words I can possibly string together to take away even the slightest bit of your pain. I cried reading your post--I am the oldest sister to a 14 year old half sister and 12 year old half brother. I would not want them to feel how you are feeling. It would break my heart if they were drinking to feel numb or if they felt the wrong sibling died.

Cry, scream, be angry, grief, but do not blame yourself and do not destroy yourself or tear yourself down in this already difficult time.

Honor her life and carry on her legacy. Achieve something she always wanted to do, do something that would make her proud. You have the power to carry her spirit with you forever and always.

When I was 16 years old I lost my mom, stepdad, and five brothers and sisters in a plane wreck. It has shown me the darkest nights I will ever know. I have been drowning in depression for a while now, but it does feel a little lighter on my chest each year.

My mum was a runner-so every day I run 2 miles to honor her memory. It doesn't take the pain away but it makes my pain have a purpose. I believe your pain has a purpose, too.

Best of luck to you.

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