PartnerInSpirit here. I have been a user of masturbation since 6th grade. Had heavy use in High School and College. This dropped out when I married. After a divorce 5 years later I started to PMO with printed material. In 2003 we got on new internet and I started using internet porn. This was for a few years. I could stop this practice, but I always carried the belief that since I was a guy I would always do this (talk about untruth). I felt that I needed to keep my access to porn to medicate my feelings. When my wife (in the miltary) was posted overseas I knew that I could sink hopelessly into porn as I was alone in the house. I took a Christinan porn recovery program and was able to wipe porn out of my behaviour. BUt I always thought that I needed to keep it. IN the last few years I have had various times of PMO with long periods of sobrity in between. It wasn't until I found NO Fap and Reboot nation and in seeing so many men address this issue that I thought it was possible for me to live completely free of all PMO and MO. I have been of porn for some time, but I started to count on June 23. This is the very first time in my life that I dared go on record to try to live without any artifial stimulation. Normally I would be afraid of failure. I didn't have very good skills at dealing with a relapse. The materials on NOFap and Reboot Nation have helpe me so much. I know now that my brain needs to be rewired and that it will get that as I live in abstinence. I am on day 45 today. Look forward to building my life in the Lord with you.