I am a 22F who is an alcoholic. I just started AA and I’m now officially 11 days sober. AMA

Hmm..in a way yes. I’ve always had a very bad childhood and had my first drink at 8 years old. I began drinking regularly 4 years ago. It gave me the courage I needed to go out and do things. It also helped me deal with my depression, anxiety, and PTSD. My parents are also alcoholics. I believe that this is a progressive disease and that if you don’t stop, it just gets worse. I will never be able to have control over alcohol...meaning I’ll never be able to drink again. There’s just something in my brain that once I get that first drink, I can’t stop.

Now, when I think about my friends going out and going to the bars, I get very sad. I did have fun a few times. But most of the time when I drank, I didn’t remember anything and no body had a good time being around me.

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