You have 3 glaring things that need sorting out- 1. Your addiction. 2. Your attitude towards relationships and women in general. 3. Your mental/emotional health and wellbeing.
Try to find and talk to a specialist about you addiction issues, no use just keeping it to yourself and your friends. You say you only really go to sleep when high, I'm not a doctor but it's pretty obvious that that isn't a good idea. Do you have a good diet and good exercise routine, if not, start one! Hiding and not dealing with an addiction doesn't prove anything... It doesn't prove that you're "a real man" or that you're tough- it's just plain unhealthy.
You say you wanted your girlfriend back, but you also "didn't care for her"? Well which is it? Either you care about her or you don't... You say women haven't "given you any attention" for a MONTH, as though that's a long time, even though it's hardly any time? Have you tried dating- actually putting EFFORT into finding a partner at all? You can't expect people to fall into your lap like that, and it seems even when they do you're not interested? These are quite mixed signals IMO.
Considering these points and the general way you talk about yourself, along with the depression that you mentioned, it definitely seems like you are relying too much on the idea that an external force is causing these issues. This reliance might just be ingrained in you due to your previous religious upbringing. I highly recommend you try to see a therapist and yes I read that money isn't quite up to scratch for you at the moment- maybe you could manifest enough money/the right therapist for your issues? Or work extra etc. As a rule of thumb in life, you have to take some RESPONSIBILITY. No matter what you believe in, God for instance, you can't expect them to do all the work for you- you have to live your life AND look after it as well!!
You're still around after 31 years, so you can't be totally ignorant to that fact, so I have some faith that you can turn your life around.
TL;DR See a doctor and therapist for your addiction issues and mental/emotional health problems. Relationships aren't the end-all-be-all of your life- especially ones which are just for sex- stop with the mixed signals! Develop healthy habits. Be responsible for your life, don't leave it up to external forces!!!