I'm depressed that my last 5 tinder dates have faked being autistic so I'll not tell them to fuck off which I warn them right away. Fucking infuriating...my father ever since I was four always told me it doesn't matter her smile or the kind way she moves through the world or some bullshit it's if she gets your cock hard! And god damned son it's the WEIRD bitches who surprise you with their odd mannerisms that just fucking get me in a state! (He was later fired from his fifth and last school for the blind for reasons I am not sure of and then got sad and then for some reason stopped being alive.) But his message stayed with me throughout the entirety of my erotic life.

Imagine fucking a woman who wasnt autistic or mentally ill. Guy realizes in the middle and just stops and mutters to himself while stopping himself from kicking in the wall while fake smiling to her to pretend he wasn't in near psychotic rage for 8 minutes just shaking his head at her and sighing half apologetically “you’re definitely not Austistic because they would be so fucking wet at this confusing development but you’re just weirded out like bitches who didn't read growing up. FUCK YOU, I'm sorry you probably have a soul that could get into heaven if god was real. FUCKKFUFUFDFK Not you, fuck you really are upset aren't you, god you have no fascination you treat this as a surface level conflict no nuance and you aren't going to shock me in any way by your reactions (he's jacking off a bit here and there, mostly for false signs of autism in her awful boring face she deserves low self esteem for having even though with symmetry she's technically pretty but there's no layers really...)

I had so much material too, 40 pages of scripts and flow charts for the fucking weird "I'm a penguin" pretend you're a British spy in the 40s and you gotta lick my balls because my sperm is needed for the 80 page invisible ink coded message we're going to win the war with over our fucking spectrum fuckfest for 3 weeks, I'm going to bored fucking you in 3 hours aren't I, god it's just gonna be "ooh my dicks so big, fuck me fuckme FUCK YOU YOU EROTICALLY BEREFT LEECH ON SOCIETY! Sorry I should have vetted you better, at least you seem stressed out and that might lead to weird psychological states that mirror the autistic sexual creativity MY COCK NEEDS HAHAHAH nah I'm chill not angry, fuck your nipples are cool and I'm a problem solver. Lesse here missy (al Capone voice hoping she comes up with her own gangster voice and you but fuck not an autistic bone in her body when your cocks not plowin') Is there any weird shit you do? Do any plays as a kid, sing one of those songs and I fuck you from behind as you pretend you’re singing to your parents and teachers? Fuck is this some “lightly choke you while you say TIGHT WET PUSSY way too much as if ooh I’m so dirty, fucking hell. God dammit it’s not your fault, just fuck I saw you liked video games and you’ve kind of that face where I thought you possessed some kind of inner imagination that manifested in unbelievably arousing ways. Fuck, never mind. Just flip around I’ll give you some orgasms just forget all that and pretend I’m your father or whatever the fuck you people do, I bet you’ve live tweeted reactions to the New Girl or some shit, yeah actually keep muttering “I’m a dumb bitch whose apparently not autistic for this fucking weirdo” you self loathing bitch, I knew you had depths of pain we can use creatively, damn you're starting to seem pretty damn autistic even got a double layer of irony that makes it feel like fucking a daydreaming English major who couldn’t tie her shoes till 11, damn this is working plus you like the humiliation too you fucking moron, bet your dad never said you could be a scientist right? Good thing I don’t want dumb as shit cum receptacles like you trying solve diabetes, solve the problem of why cum is still in my balls you normie fuck toy.