Am I making a big mistake by wanting to leave my SO?

I think you may be making a mistake. I am have the same diagnoses and have had the same experience around the 2 year mark of my now 2.5year long relationship with my SO. He stayed by my side through the most awful of times and he supported me and held my hand when most people would have walked away. From what you are saying, that is the type of man you have as well. I also have had many relationships, while I am only his second relationship because he prefers to wait for long meaningful relationships instead of flings. He is 26 years old, right? That is a grown man so, yes it may be his first relationship, but if he is still there by your side after all the ups and downs- trust him enough to know what he wants as a man. If he loves you, says he loves you, shows you he loves you, acts in ways that proves he loves you, then believe him and accept that love because I know better than anyone that us Bipolars can have an extremely hard time finding a stable partner that is good to us that is right for us. Sweetie, if that is what you have- keep it! I started to get this little crush on this guy that i saw at a treatment program I was at and I remember how i really contemplated the same thing you are talking about. I decided to wait because my sponsor at the time said, "Don't make any major life changes in your first year of sobriety. For example: Move to a new home; Quit Your Job; Jump into a new Relationship OR Leave a LONG Term Relationship..." I am so glad that I listened to my sponsor because I realised shortly after that it was just a mixture of lust, sexual frustrations, and anxiety about not knowing what to do with being healthy. Really I was just uneasy about being stable... I just wasn't used to it and it dysregulated me a bit more than i realised at the time. This is a really cliche phrase but holy shit was it fucking accurate for me at that moment and maybe it will be for you: "Don't leave the person you love for the person you like, because the person you like will leave you for the person they love." Hopefully, whether or not you chose to stay or go you find peace and happiness <3 Best of luck <3 -Smart Alex

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