Nobody called you an incel but now that you’ve mentioned it....
My future husband knows this story. He knows all my stories, all the nitty gritty awfulness of the person I used to be. Between 16-24, I was a right mess and I don’t mean I had HUGE SLUT written across my forehead. But guess what! I’m in a monogamous relationship with someone I love! He doesn’t care what I did in the past because he loves me for who I am and isn’t a judgemental prick!
You know what else? Despite this being a pretty nasty story, there’s nothing wrong with having safe, consensual sex. There’s nothing wrong with enjoying sex. In this particular situation, I made a mistake. I learned from it. And now that I’m not a totally immature person who thinks ‘women having sex=bad’ I can have a good laugh about it.