At least you are in her social media. I know it’s not that important, or maybe it is, I don’t know, I asked him to at least open his friends list to public so I could see who is there ( his ex was there and I know that’s was the reason he don’t want be there) he unfriended her because I asked, and let it open for a couple of days but now put privet again, I can’t help myself but thinking that rather she is there again or someone else.

He’s amazing with me, and I don’t want to complain because it seems to be so little and I don’t want be controlling, I really don’t want make him upset and openly ask again. he will feel I don’t trust him.

She was a long term with him, and they had broken up a couple of months ago, we were talking prior to that I feel I have no right to even ask him to add me there, I wish he could do it because he wanted for his own will

He does talk about me to a lot of people I know, we are planning to meet in December ( not in his country as he doesn’t want because he “doesn’t want to rub on her face”) I know every single step of his day one more reason to feel I have no right to feel what I feel.

I know he’s in a process of grieving her, I’m trying to be understanding with him and give it time.

I just wonder where do I fit on his real life. I can’t press, I understand it’s a process, he says he loves me and have been more present on my life than any other boyfriend I ever had.

It’s so confusing, can you please give me any advice?