I am terrified that going back to work will be the beginning of the end.

I also took a LOA from my job. I actually walked out of my job, but my employer wanted to know what was going on, so I was honest with them. I’m seeing my therapist, and just got meds recently too.

I’m afraid that once I go back, I will leave again. It’s a stressful, fast paced job-they prefer quantity over quality. It’s a good company, but I was so stressed out being there. My SO and I were and still are constantly fighting, and that didn’t help my being there. I feel stupid for having to say that, but it’s true. The deterioration of my marriage, an addict spouse and the stress of the job got to me. I’ve had two mental breakdowns since then. I’ve never been hospitalized though.

I hope that things get better for you, and you can find what makes you feel good in life.

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