i am trying not to kill myself / a lesson from bojack

sorry, but this is just a crock of shit. "normal" people experience different levels of sadness -- not depression. moreover, people with depression all have different experiences and it's not a thing you're able to scale and say, "See, see you're just the same!" the truth is, depression is so personalized that it's impossible to have two equal experiences of it or completely understand another's suffering.

with that said, the reactions OP's family have toward OP's episodes and deterioration of the relationship is not unheard of. it's part of that sadness doesn't equal depression, so people who aren't suffering from depression can't even come close to understanding what it's like or what OP is going through. i wouldn't put entire blame on the family, since OP admits they did something that made the relationship(s) deteriorate, but it certainly doesn't help that they're not being a support system that OP severely needs when knowing that OP suffers from MDD.

To OP, I would say you really gotta find another support system somehow. Sometimes nuclear family can't be looked to for such things. It doesn't mean you're pathetic or useless, it just means your suffering can't be fully understood by them and you need someone else, a professional possibly, to try and help you through it.

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