Well that brings a little clarity to it. But her and I come from two different worlds in terms of family. My family is extremely close knit and supportive and I know they have never once in my existence not had my best interest in mind. They would never put me in a situation where it was them or her. She comes from a family of high conflict with people who constantly pin each person against one another. I only trust her dad in her family, but I would never trust her mother or sister.

I hate to say it but its hard for me to budge on this. I really value my word and I hate just saying things to make someone feel better unless I truly mean it. She re-asked the question in multiple ways and I had no problem answering it: "Who do you most want to come home to", "Who do you want to build your life with", "Who do you want to share all your secrets with", I had no problem saying its her. She asked me one other one which was "Who do you rely on most" and I said myself - wasn't trying to be mean but its just the truth.

Your comment brought some clarity into it, but I still disagree with it. She knows me well enough to know that I refuse to get close to people because I don't trust others, but she is one of the few people that have ever broken through that wall. Plus I work 50+ hours a week and do school work, yet I'm trying to make sure I relieve her stress from starting up school as much as possible. There is a lot in my day-to-day actions that proves that, and I'm actually a very selfish person.