Thank you for your response and I understand. The letter is definitely too much as you said, just some frustration, and I knew that it was unfair to put that on her. I have been doing a lot to work on myself, and I have realized the pain that I have caused especially by lying. I have been going to therapy myself and I have noticed how much of a difference it has made in the way that I feel and express my emotions, I will definitely continue to take the time to work on myself. Thank you for your insight on the isolation, I never meant for her to be isolated, I just am scared when I don't know that she is safe. We do live together and have been dating for almost 4 years. She is really my only support system which is why I came here because I don't want to add anything to all of the trauma, so I appreciate your comments.