I am willing to pay you 2GD to take the time out to read my question(s) / story for you. This is long and you won't enjoy reading it. I do not care if you even reply to this post with one word, it would mean the world to me if I know that by forcing myself to post this paid off in some form. I will honestly send you as much money as I can just to be acknowledged that this post wasn't ignored. Reply with a paypal address or bitcoin address and you will be paid. Forgive me if this post seems a bit odd, I have been feeling quite hesistant to even write this as I am a bit paranoid and a general feeling of nervousness/anxiety/etc that you probably won't read this with all of the questions in this thread.
The question(s) and backstory aren't even that good, however I am forcing myself to put myself out there and post this. This is where I say, "fuck it" and just go for it. I already sound mentally ill and I have not even started with the questions. Forgive me, I just had a nice relaxing smoke of crack. Thinking about it, I don't even have many questions for you as most of what I am going to type are statements and a bit of a story.
I have been a fan of yours for quite some time so first I would like to say that I appreciate you being a proper cunt as we need more people in this world who speak what is on their mind. It seems you live life as you want, and you aren't a sheep like most of society. I have actually changed my life because of you, and I want to thank you for this.
I realized it is possible to do things that you love in life, and this changed my entire outlook on life. When I was a kid my parents had quite a bit of money as they were always running their own businesses, and in my teenage years my dad fell ill and we lost nearly all of our money.
I barely graduated high school so I would like to say it was probably near impossible to find a job, however I always found a way to get by. I needed to support my family as they supported me in my childhood, so I did whatever I could. I am a quick learner and I work hard, and I won't stop until my work is done. I borrowed money from a friend to buy a book to study, and later I got a license and certified to work in a pharmacy. I had a decent job and eventually I had to quit to take care of my father.
I became his fulltime caretaker as my mom wasn't able to do so anymore. Eventually I went down a slippery slope as I was weak, so I turned to drugs. I have been struggling with addiction for quite a while and would like to say you had a big part in changing my life around for the better. I was hooked on nearly every drug for years and I would still be a smackhead, in prison, or be dead like everyone else in my life right now if it weren't for you. I went to detox and rehab and sobered up, however I will be an addict for the rest of my life. I just need to choose something positive to be addicted to, such as work or video games.
I know my strengths and weaknesses, and I am not afraid to admit such things as I believe you can turn your weaknesses into strengths. I know that this post is utter shit and you probably regret reading this far into it, if you have even done so. I know my story doesn't mean shit and I don't know why I wrote it up, however I do know that I would regret not typing this up.
Basically, the point of this post is/was to: thank you for being you and not changing for anyone; reach out to somebody I look up to and ask for some real honest and brutal advice.
I am stuck at the moment in my life on what to do, I am in my mid twenties and do not know what to do. As I said I know my strengths and weaknesses, however I do not know where to put those skills to use. I constantly think of what I can do in life, and I try something new every week. I try not to put all the eggs in one basket, so I try and fail all the time. I believe being comfortable is the killer of creativity, and at the moment I am comfortable. The best work I have done is when I was poor and had nothing. I believe people are the most successful at age 20-25 as there aren't many responsibilities to worry about, so they are able to say "fuck it" and just do it.
I am getting to that age and I need to say fuck it and do something that I love. I am willing to spend all of the money I have right now to buy a plane ticket and pay you to work for you. I will pay you to be your intern. I probably have no skills that would benefit you, but I will be whatever you want me to be, you can mold me into whatever you want. I will do as you say, I will be on call 24 hours a day, and I will dedicate my life to learn from you. I will motivate you if you have no motivation, I will call you out on your bullshit and be as real as a person should be. I want to do something big in life, and I have high hopes and dreams. You are really the opposite of what I should be looking for as a role model, however I would still give up everything in my life I have to work with you.
Let me work for you and I will pay you; let me rape the shit out of life with you instead of being a lazy cunt; let me be new and fresh blood that I believe you desperately need in your life. It seems as if most of the people you have worked with do not appreciate what they have been given, the chance to work with fucking James 2GD Harding.
Or just tell me to fuck off and I will be equally pleased. Either way, I was going to apologize here for making you read all of this, but I honestly don't care. You probably won't read this; I will probably delete this before you even get a chance to read this.
But if you did read this, I owe you some money.