AMA with a Mental Health specialist

Thanks for doing this.

I don't know if this is the right place to share this but need to tell someone.

A few of years ago, I messed up and threw away a Master’s degree. In spite of all these years passing I just feel really guilty. I tried a few things after college and it all failed. Then last year managed to find a job and later in the year started going to class in the evenings things were looking up. But somehow I’ve began to feel like life is a meaningless charade. I’m not going to hurt myself but just don’t feel like anything matters.

Also i just feel super lonely. I go to events and meet people but it just feels so fake. I’m not really good-looking. Kind of bald and fat, and get too philosophical so the whole dating scene is non-existent. I tried opening up to friends about being lonely but they either don’t believe me because I was kind of popular in college, or they start talking about their lives and the problems they have with their girlfriends. I’ve found giving up on finding someone makes me feel better but it’s just a temporary fix.

I thought maybe it’s all just because I’m burning out as a result of the long commute, work and class. I decided to travel. I did a couple of solo trips and it felt great, but when i came back and ran into this woman I was really into and her boyfriend, I was back to square one. I just felt ugly and alone.

It’s weird that when i’m around a group of people in can make the group laugh but step aside and I feel so distant and disconnected from everyone.

I guess that’s why I have to watch the match every week. Of course Liverpool losing or makes me feel a little down. But it’s not about winning or losing, it’s just that I can forget my world and focus on the football for the duration of the match and it feels so good.

I understand that we are all dealing with existential loneliness and having a ton of money or being superman would help, but what would be really great right now, is if there was someone I could be with and just be honest.

Liam, any advise on being alone and dealing with it would be really great. Thanks.

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