Amazon income and work conditions are brutal & not sufficient to get me out of homelessness. Why live anymore?

"Why live anymore?"

Please don't kill yourself I'm talking to you And i don't pretend to know everything that you've been through But if it's shame you feel, just know that i've sinned too And if it's pain you're feeling, Just know that that's something i went through I don't know your story but i know you and me are a lot alike So let me talk to you for a minute, while i've got this mic

I was 24 when i pulled a gun out At the time it felt like my options had run out So i put that barrel to my chest and i pulled the trigger halfway I tried to muster up the courage to put myself away that day

But halfway with that trigger pulled, i stopped Tears flooded my eyes and that pistol dropped And i sat in my room and i sobbed for an hour On the outside i was fine on the inside a coward

The noise of my depression had gotten louder and louder

I've been lied to just like you're being lied to now

Other people can't help you but i might know how Because i've walked in your shoes and i've been at my lowest And if you don't know anything, know this

You might tell me you're gonna kill yourself and you're close to this But God wants to meet you in the middle of your hopelessness

God wants to give you a way out of these feelings of doubt And the sounds of chaos might be Reverberating around you like heavy metal

But confusion isn't from God it's straight from the devil And he wants to silence the noise and bring peace to you

And i promise if you just ask him he'll see you through

You got to this place because you tried fighting your own fight And where did that get you? Except contemplating about taking your own life

And if you got bullied to this point I'm sorry you went through that But God wants to take those words From your attackers and send them back

You don't have to be defined by what people said about you Let me pick you up if you don't know how to

You're not alone, man you've got a friend in me You got better days ahead of you, i just pray you begin to see

Know that everything the devil did to you he wants you to replay

But everything the devil took from you God wants to replace Listen to me right now, you better look me right in the face You were created for more than to die in this place

Don't do it man, please don't take your life Just take my hand we'll make this right I promise if you do this you'll regret it You wake up in eternity remember, i said it

And you wished so bad you could just go back I'm here for you right now, please just know that And if you think you're alone in this fight, you've been lied to

That depression came after me and i nearly died too I thought suicide was the only way and death was meant for me The devil played his music and i sat front row through that symphony

I walked through it and pushed through

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